As I’ve written a bit about in previous posts, I’ve gone through quite a broad and deep transformation as far as religion and spirituality goes.
I was just sitting here surfing around totally unrelated to anything religious or spiritual and suddenly realized I might not want there to be an afterlife. I’ve been thinking more and more that I may just not care, as long as I don’t have to be aware of living anymore, if that makes any sense.
I’ve spent 40 years trying to learn and grow as a spiritual being with the constant belief in some kind of afterlife, and that being ‘released from my earthly/flesh bonds’ would be the greatest thing to ever happen and I’d flit around the Universe in Spirit forever having a smashingly grand time.
I think I just want sleep. Rest. Shut down. Stop. Cease. End.
I want Oblivion.
Very soon.
what if this is the after life before we are reborn back into…
me, i’m dyin’ to learn what’s next.
nick in space
March 5, 2009 at 9:10 PM
I just don’t want to come back, even tho I won’t know I’m back… I don’t wanna not know something I think might happen because I think it’s a possibility and I’m fully aware right now that I don’t want to know something I won’t remember.
the13thcynic
March 5, 2009 at 10:00 PM